‘Cancer: My Journey in Time’ (part 43)
Am I dreaming?

Rev. Enoch Fuzz

Every day we sleep. During sleep, dreams happen whether we ‘see,’ remember them or not. There are different definitions of the word ‘dream.’ One definition is that dreams are a succession of images, ideas, emotions that usually occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleeping. Dreams can sometimes be in the form or an organized and sensible sequence or in the form of a hodgepodge of senseless fractured information. When we awaken from slumber, we sometimes recall a dream and wonder what it meant.

Rev. Enoch Fuzz, pastor of the Corinthian Missionary Baptist Church, said: “Make sure you wake up when you go to sleep.” What could that mean? He said he was sleeping and knew that he was dreaming during his sleep. Since it was a bad/frightening dream, he wanted to come out of that sleep! However, something held him back and kept him in the dream space. He didn’t recall what, other than it was not good. (This may be familiar with you also; it is not an exclusive occurrence.) “I pulled and pulled myself away from what I was dreaming until I was awake!”

“Samuel!” Samuel heard his name three times in the scriptures (1 Samuel 3:3-18). He was positive that his name was called. However, when he answered Eli, his father said repeatedly that he did not call his name and told him to return to bed. Was Samuel dreaming?

Rev. Fuzz spends a lot of time in the bed resting or sleeping as he continues on his journey with stage four lung cancer. This time last year, it was never a choice to be bed-ridden. Rev. Fuzz spent a lot of time in hospital beds and under very close care from doctors and others. He was in a state of unrest in mind, body and spirit. Not knowing what to think or expect, it was often difficult to sleep. Currently, what his body needs most of all is rest. Lying in bed sometimes makes him tired, so Rev. Fuzz will often sit in his recliner (and fall asleep there).

Just as we have no control over the pandemic that stopped everyday life for everyone, Rev. Fuzz had no control over his journey with stage four lung cancer. It all seems like a dream. He often goes to sleep and awakens to repeat: “Is this a dream?” But then he realizes: “No, it’s all real.” Fuzz cannot force himself awake as when he had the ‘bad dream.’ But to get through this situation, he can pray. There is force in prayer. The doctors words are notably “a still, small voice,” but that’s not so still and not so small. Their directives can change the course of any situation.

Just like Samuel, you may have heard a “still, small voice” speak to you. Do not fear. When we pray, we should also be listening for answers to our prayers. And when you hear the Lord speak to you, reply: “Speak to me Lord. Your servant is listening.” While you cannot control most dreams while sleeping, you can control those dreams that are ‘communications’ with God. These can be cherished aspirations, ambitions or ideals.

Continue to pray for Rev. Enoch Fuzz. He is in continuous prayer for you and the “whole wide world.” Visit his Facebook site where you will find him sharing his praise in pictures, testimony and song. As we continue to follow God’s guide, keep following his weekly journey, ‘Cancer: My Journey in Time.’

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